This little light of mine...will blind you

I hate when people more or less "hate" on other shine. Don't get me wrong sometimes its warranted. Maybe I should be more specific... And I swear this ish happens VERY OFTEN.

(Insert random celebrity name here) gets attention for whatever and then out the blue some random person gets slightly offended at this attention, and states something like "It's a shame that (random celeb) is getting all this attention but (insert either Jesus or random historical figure) doesn't"

That shit irks me.

Firstly because when they say the shit about Jesus it just isn't true. Don't get me wrong. Not everybody is going bonkers over Jesus and I almost am prone to think that's what these people want. But enough are. One doesn't have to do much more than to click on their TV any given Sunday to find some televangelist preaching in mega churches across the country that rival many stadiums and concert venues. And please believe those joints are PACKED.

Secondly, as far as other historical figures...when has the world ever functioned where everyone shines at the same time? The sun shines on one area at a time does it not? It's not realistic even from mother natures perspective so why would it be the case for anything else? Also when said person is getting all this positive attention it usually means that the person has a multitude of people big upping their name. Therefore if you really want your person to shine get on your job.

Stop hating on other people. It's counter-productive

"How come you talk out ya ass but don't have sh*t to say?"

So within a weeks time span I've managed to perform stand up and KILL IT and then perform and get heckled to the point I just walked off the stage. That yin and yang is a mf'er. Having one of the best and worst experiences of your life in the same week can be seriously draining. But ah well... I guess it comes with the territory. I still plan on continuing to perform. And on the bright side of my heckling experience, afterward I was able to come up with some counter-heckling material. Definitely some well needed shit for some one that performs stand up. Shit is like having a gun in the hood. Sure...it may not be absolutely imperative to have one but you'd be amazed at the respect that you can garner when you do.

To be honest tho I should have been prepared for the negative experience anyway. It wasn't even a comedy club, it was a poetry open mic in a hole in the wall bar. Other than the music which my homey deejayed the vibe was all kinds of terrible. People were carrying on there own side conversations while people were performing. Many of the poems were off the wall (in a bad way). Others in the crowd just looked bored. I didn't feel like performing poetry that day. I had just came off of a great performance on Wednesday. I wanted to get that feeling back. So I figured I'd do comedy and maybe somehow wake the crowd up for the poets or whoever that followed...

So I get on stage and get into my stuff and out the blue this chick is just yelling all kinds of bullshit out. It caught me off guard, because well first I've never experienced that before and second because ol girl was a new member of a poetry troupe I use to belong to...She should know better. I tried to work through it initially, but she kept fucking with my timing. So I just was like "fuck it" and walked off the stage. I had an angry vibe the rest of the night. It took me forever to get back to sleep. I kept thinking of how I should have handled it. How I should have addressed her so that I could continue my stuff in peace.

Ya live and ya learn.

Rant upinthisbitch

1. It's funny how I can feel super confident in some areas and not confident at all in others
2. I punked out on posting the vid from the comedy competition. I didn't do bad, but I fucked up none the less. I don't like showing folks my shit unless its A-1.
3. I need to meet more people. Not enough people know about me. Not enough people know who I am. THIS HAS TO CHANGE.
4. Sometimes I get down on myself but then I try to snap out of it because I don't want to be that stereotypical moody artist (I am though)
5. In May I'm going to literally be a lab rat for 2 weeks. Get this... U of M is going to pay me a G to feed me 6 meals a day, have me sit on my ass, and measure my weight gain. (in Smokey from Friday voice) "Niggas is broke these days"
6. I should've wrote this rant last night...I would've had more to say...Ah well I'm sure it'll come back.

Peace

Work in progress

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Red light, green light
Whats the potion to keep you in motion
I'm tryin to keep your mind open with potent smelling salts
Keep you aware so you stay scopin just beyond the end of the tunnel

Because too many turn away
Knock away blinders
Claim they make it so they can't see
When they could never see shit, even with shit in their eyes

It amazes me how some can't see sick amidst waves transporting small pox to their brethren
See while you're splitting hairs,
they're splitting up theirs
You from yours
You neglected to stay the course

Quit the race right when the baton was handed to you
You was enjoying progress instead of progressing
You lessened the pace when you should have still been learning lessons...

Sometimes...

I swear I'm the flyest and other times I swear I'm funny looking. But when the latter is going on I try my best to act otherwise, because sometimes you can fool people...lol.

after taste

There are certain events in life that just leave you speechless. Sometimes I wonder if words are even appropriate at all in these circumstances. Who knows. I guess the best I can do is try to treat everybody in a loving fashion and hope for the best. Peace and blessings to everyone.

Keeping it real...with reality

(I'm going to attempt to make this sound not like a rant as much as possible.)

"To err is human..."

You've probably heard that quote quite a few times. Basically, it means that fucking up is apart of being alive. Its what we humans do. We fuck up from time to time. Some more than others. Many of us try our best not to do so but it's inevitable. The trick is to just contain the size of the fuck up and then you can probably at least live with yourself.

Now I don't say this to be a cop out or anything like that. I believe we should all strive for perfection. I mean why not? Sure it doesn't exist and probably has never existed but if your not trying to better yourself then whats the point of living?

With all that in mind I get some what annoyed when I see people judge each other so harshly. A friend of mine once got on a stage and told a crowd of people "There are geniuses all around you, be aware." That quote has stuck with me. Its true. There are special people, geniuses, everywhere. And most of them we'll never notice. Why? Because many of need some kind of sponsorship or special co-sign for people to see the light. And until that happens all we see is whatever we deem as imperfection. Why can't we have both? Why can't people fuck up and be geniuses? That would be too much like REALITY. That's why when I hear stuff like MLK cheated on his wife, Ghandi was racist against blacks, or stuff like that I'm not phased (anymore). What do we expect from these people? I know we are constantly beat over the head by these companies (which are out to make a dollar) that these people were just these superb individuals that shat world peace. But that isn't the truth. They were just people. They woke up and breathed the same air that we do. They just shined in certain areas.

Don't sleep on the geniuses around you.