Monday, August 31, 2009

for the homey Teecolah

The evolution of revolution

A change gon come
but that change may not be the change you been dreaming of
The change may have changed itself
Time changes
Things change
We got a wealth

of change

Its a magic word this revolution
Some things change, some things stay the same
Full circle
360 degrees
Sometimes you just start right back where you started from
but that's not failure, just an opportunity to show what you've learned

It's called experience

Full circle
Like dusk to dawn and back again
The light is back again soak it or be burned by it
Be SPURNED by it
Grow from it
LIVE from it
And when the sun disappears
Don't be dismayed that you'll experience the same shit tomorrow.

It's called experience.
Full circle

The evolution of revolution.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

the piece I punked out on spittin in public


No news at 8
No special Updates
Just always late
As in, I wish I could've gotten to him sooner
But I was just too late
I wish I could've told him he was so great to me
But fate just snatched him away


No time to adjust
No look past
No time to pass
No time to fake
It's real
No time to breathe
Only time to choke
No crossover
Only souls crossing over


No off switch
Only nervous twitch
It's in your name
And you're gonna pay
No breaks
Just heartbreak
Just earthquakes
The type of hurt that makes ya whole core shake
Ya soul ache
Went from "take it all in" to " call in the undertaker"


On your mind
All the time
No unwind
No rewind
It's like gravity is working overtime
Giving you special attention
Dead locked
Death deep down
Buried in dispair
No you're not garbage, just wasted


and on
and on
and on
and on...

Sunday, August 16, 2009

I know a lot of people say this, but I actually mean it

I'm not afraid to die.

What's there to fear? If you're gone you're gone. There are no more worries because there is no more YOU. At least not in the physical sense. Haven't been into religion for quite sometime now but it isn't a stretch for me to think of the "spirit" as something real. The Law of conservation of energy says that energy can not be created or destroyed only transferred. Sounds like how religious people speak of God (cannot be created nor destroyed) and death (energy transferred).

But I digress.
One thing I think is actually worthy of fearing is being alive in a non-functional state...meaning severely handicapped. That would suck.

Not only would it suck to be the person who can't control themselves, but also for those people who are in control of you. Like they literally hold your life in their hands. Do they try to keep you living even though you may suffer the whole time? Do they cut you off quick? It's the dictionary definition of a catch 22.

Just some shit I thin about from time to time.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

classic youtube clip...smh


Wednesday, August 12, 2009


The light shines so bright
it's so right
It's so night
So it's illumination can 't be ignored

And sunglasses you just can't afford
Not cost
I mean afford to ignore what's staring you right in the face

Not displaced
Not misplaced
Done purposely
executed perfectly
Damn near divine

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

point a to b (short jouney in photos)

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Friday, August 7, 2009

Moral of the story :parenting is hard

The time after moving out of my parents house is somewhat funny to me. I grew up in a household where my dad, for the most part, ran the show. And what that meant in my specific case of upbringing is that my influences were monitored throughout my (0-18yr) life heavily but as I got older I was given more freedom to act on my own. I am still clueless on whether my parents did this purposely or was it circumstantial. Anyways, like I said before, it was funny once I moved out of the house and saw that my mothers side of the family, which was more matriarchal and also had an impact on my upbringing, was always worried about me. Like if I didn't check in with them every couple days, weeks, or so they'd set the family a buzz with all types of questions and such and if I wasn't there to answer questions most of the time people would just make shit up. It just came to me now like after 9 years of (legal) adulthood that maybe the hardest part of parenting isn't during 0-18. Maybe the hardest part is when they are out of the nest and the fam (because it takes a village) has to wonder to themselves "did I prepare them properly?"

Fuck a symbolic report card for the president. The true grade of parent is how a kid handles themselves when they're not in the presence of their parents...or better yet when they no longer have to fear the punishment from their parents. That's how you grade a parent.

Some double standards are ok...right???

Oddly enough, it was discussed in a statistics class I just took that certain double-standards are just ingrained in society. And some of them I honestly don't know whether or not I want them to change.

Maybe it'd help if I shared the discussion...

Our teacher, a statistics professor, told us (the class) that apart of his job as a stats prof. every once in awhile he has to gather...statistics. And being that he doesn't want to get bored while doing it he tries to pick interesting subjects to gather info about. One of the subjects we discussed for many hours was "sexual coercion"

Sexual coercion by definition is being persuaded to do something sexually that you don't really want to do.

Many of us instantly think of some of the darker types of coercion such as rape (threats of violence and such), but the definition is so broad that more can fall into it. Behaviors such as:
-Nagging someone until they give in
-strolling in naked in order to distract your significant other from the game (distinctly a female behavior)
-telling someone that they aren't a real (woman/man) because they won't have sex with you
-threatening to put someone business in the street if they won't have sex with you
-telling some one they don't really love you because they won't have sex
-trying to assure someone that you won't dog them out after you have sex
-trying to assure someone that they won't regret having sex with them (i.e. the sex will be good)
-getting people drunk or intoxicated on drugs
-giving people gifts in order to get sex

I can go on and on.

Now, any of these in the environment of a job are grounds for sexual harassment. So for the purpose of my argument I'm gonna exclude that scenario. Lets say all of these happen outside of the work place.

If a woman nags a man to have sex over and over is that a big problem?
If a woman gets a man drunk with the purpose of getting him loose is that a big problem?

Now what about if a man does those things?

In the class we also tried to come up with a number of behaviors to more specifically define stalking. One of the things that came up out of us doing this was we found that when males were the "offenders" or the people doing the actions that they were taken more seriously then when females do the same thing.

You rarely hear about female getting caught up for vandalizing a car...If a man vandalizes someones property. It's a problem.

If a woman starts showing up at places at unexpected times guys tend not to sweat it. They may even use it to stroke their ego. When a man does it, immediate problem.

If a woman leaves a billion messages on your phone, a man thinks "I'm the shit" and chances are they won't think of taking any action other than blocking their number. When a guy does it, a woman thinks "restraining order"

Shit...even when a woman threatens the life of a man that man rarely takes the threat serious enough to take action...straight up. But if a man does it, its pretty textbook for a woman to call the police on his ass.

Now don't get me wrong at all, I have a sister, and shit even if I didn't have a sister I would more than likely think that these particular realities (the female reactions) are on point. Meaning that if a guy were to do these things to any female I expect them to immediately act in order to protect themselves...but unfortunately, the reality of these reactions, both the womens actions and the mens often ignorant lack of action, means that that it is society general thinks that women are the weaker sex. I'm pretty sure it is this mentality that obstructs women from making advancements in other areas. Is it possible to make strides in one area without the other. I don't know. I do know that I honestly feel a bit of comfort telling my sis to get authorities involved. Don't get it twisted, I've also taught my sis to scrap her way out if she has to, the the reality is that's not gonna work all the time (and scientifically men are physically stronger than women), so it's best to take the steps to avoid the nonsense.

I don't put too much weight behind the strength thing tho. Every class I've ever taken dealing with intellectual subject matter (math, science, history, etc) has been dominated by females. So does that mean that women are intellectually superior? Could be... but if that's the case then you're compelled to ask (with womens' need to fight for equality over the past kajillion years) "is it wise to emphasize strength or intellect?" I personally don't know.

I could go on and on. Hopefully, I sparked some thought in someone other than myself in this one. Feel free to share thoughts opinions, etc...

Thursday, August 6, 2009

the illest break dancer ever

if you think otherwise

Monday, August 3, 2009

I have to see this

My much older cousin once said to his wife...

I've been working at the zoo for 30 years.

Everyday on the way to work I smell shit.

When I get to work I have to shovel shit.

And when I leave I smell like shit.

Now when I get home woman I ain't gon' put up with your shit

Mmm mmm...That's too much shit.


Saturday, August 1, 2009

Drakes explanation

(Source: ...check out his blog he has a lot of cool media stuff on there.)

Just asking...

Alright I have a question for ya'll...and homey, if you are reading this (you know who you are), this isn't a dis at you, a slight, or anything like that. It's all love. I'm just trying to gain some information so maybe I can be enlightened. Trying to find out whether I'm tripping or not. that I've gotten the disclaimer out there.

Ladies and gents. Let's say, hypothetically speaking, you were dating a person for six months. Nothing official. No titles. But for six months you and another person handled each other in a way that it could possibly turn into something bigger. After that six months it turns out that it didn't work out. No official relationship comes out of it. You both go your separate ways. a little time goes by, and a person you both know asks the person you've been dating for half of a year about the said relationship and they deny anything happened at all. Forget dating...they say they "barely even know you".

Is that insulting to you?
Would you be offended?

I mean, forget about how you would react to the news of this afterward. After pursuing the possibility of a relationship for 6 months, and then someone denying they even know you, like you're a lesser being. Would you feel insulted?